Elder Sister/Brother ?!

I wonder how does it feels to have an elder sister/brother.
Well, born as the eldest with 3 younger sisters is fun, we can share lots of thing.
We played games, joke around, share clothes, opinion and accessories.
But, still I play the most important role which is being the eldest, I've to take care.
I don't cry, I don't act cute, I don't pamper, well I still complain. :P

But, instead of take care of others, I'd like to have someone who can take care of me.
I think since I'm the eldest, my parents have a big expectation on me.
It's like they've "trained" me to become a strong person,
seriously..
I'm not like any other girl that will cry easily,
(not being arrogant here).
I won't cry unless I can't hold it no more or it is too much pain already.
Well, I've to admit that this year is the toughest year I've been through..

I guess It'll be so fun, if we have someone to take care of us, isn't it? :)

LOST??

One question that keep on coming in my mind
"Am I taking the wrong major?"
"Am I in the wrong line?"

Last time I took business major, then changed to Information Technology (IT) major.
I like singing, dancing and acting. lol
Instead of taking anything related to this kind of things, I took others.
I enjoy my time when it comes to arts or which is related to my interests. :P
So, Am I? LOST?

Be Strong

I think I'm strong enough for a 18-years-old girl,
You may not know what I've been through
How many pain I've suffered
How many things I've carried alone
How many tears that fell down
Though I tried to stand strong
and not to shed even a tear

Even though I can't compare myself to some people
like those people who suffered in Africa, Padang, etc

I hate being weak,
but in fact I just to weak to pretend that I'm not weak
I can fool the world, but I just can't fool myself
But.. I will..
pretend to be strong,
trying to not feel the pain,
pretend to not care

And here I am...
trying to be strong.

Lee Min Ho + Shooting

This morning I woke up at 11 something.
So I took a bath then prepare myself to go to Sungai Wang to see 'Lee Min Ho'.
Everybody seems like they can't wait to see him.
So we met up in monash condominium main gate.
Well, I din't expect anything, but there're lots of them there.
There are 14 people, 4 cabs. haha
(Pitok, Ellen, Meivie, Chavia, Mery, Devie, Cicil, Ervina, Vina, Patricia, Steph, Felis, Me, and many more.. )

We went there and it's freaking crowded, we waited and people kept pushing us and it's annoying.
Yea yea... I must admit that he is handsome. :P
And guess what, everybody is screaming, not including me though.


Then, I heard that the queue line is from the other side, so we moved and get push there, it was so HOT, I can't barely find an oxygen. @.@
So I have to lift my head up just to get the fresh air..
N guess, they are all scary, keep pushing like it's Tsunami.
Most f everybody is sweating and seems tired.
Until, suddenly the MC said the session is over and everybody screamed.
Then, when they about to leave, they push everybody
Then I was so angry, can you imagine they pushed the crowd and everybody is like in pain and I screamed, "STOP PUSHING!" but they still did that. =.=
Then, the other started to scream as well.

Ladies get upset

So yea, picture of a ladies with its poster still clean, untouched & UNSIGNED

I was so tiring, i guess it's better for me to not come.
And I guess it gonna be the first and the last one.
Then, we ate in pyramid mall,
and back to Pitok's house, to shot the last scene for the short-movie
It was fun, I mean the shooting. :P
Coz I love acting and I can't wait to see the final short-movie.. XD

Addicted to Ass

Oh NO! The tittle sounds so wrong!
But I like it.. haha XD

Forget bout the past,
I gotta keep goin' on.
Can't stuck my life in sorrow and sadness

K, so I dunno why, though I have lots of things to do this week.
I don't seems to scare or getting that 'rush' feeling
I still feel ok and 'enjoying' my day. lol
Last few weeks, I felt so lazy and don't feel like doing my assignments.
It just today that I starting to feel the 'chemistry' of assignment. haha
I'm addicted to my assignment, I feel like finishing it earlier and give the best. :D
So, guess that's all. I gotta brush my teeth and go to bed.
It's 2:36 already!
I have an early class at 10 tmr.
Ok, its consider early for me.. :P

Trust-Believe

I guess I've loss my ability to trust people.
I am tired, really tired.
I'll probably believe you, but I wont 100% believe in you
I've been so sad and don't want to give away my faith to people easily

In fact nobody really know who I am unless my parents and maybe my sisters.
People always thought that they knew me
but that just what they think about..

I'm sick, I can't barely breathe well at night
I've lost of assignment need to be done
4 assignments and 1 presentation in one week.
I've lost of scars that need to be take care of, not to mention that it is pain and itchy
I lack of sleep and my eyes is pain again
I've this problem again
Can 'problem' you please go away, I've been so tired
I am not that strong, even yea I've been go through lots of problems
Though people think that I'm strong, I still a girl, I still a human.
I still have the weak side

I cry in the night, cry alone while I slept
and nobody knew that
I kept all the problem my self
with this problem, this make me more 'isolated'

If you notice, i've been quite ignorance this few weeks
I've try and learn to be ignorance and don't want to care bout others anymore
Coz I learn that lots of people are being ignorance and less problem will you get

Ellen birthday

It was 28th September, so we made surprise for Ellen because its her birthday.

Follow this link (to see the video):
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1156463065404

We gave her a cake

She cut the cake

She ate it

Ellen: Delicious!! XD

Took picture of crew behind the screen

We tied her

Took picture again (bfr the action)

The dough XD
Contained: Water, Detergen, Soy Sauce, Soy Sauce's plastic, Flour, Plastic bag, Cake box, Grass, leafs, soil, insect. lol



After

Final picture together

And I ended the day by sleeping at 3 AM something

Beware in China

I don't know what the heck they are thinking bout.
They are just crazy, they even go down from their motorcycle to rob and I'm curious, why there is no police ???!!!

Forgive

This is another video for you to start to make a better day.
Start forgive people, if everybody like him I sure no more wars in this world.



Enjoy the video!

Xoxox

Driver DON'T SPEED!

Please, be careful! Do not speed eventhough I know its fun.
If you don't love your life, please at least think of others which still want to live.



Once I watched this video, this reminded me of my motorcycle accident.
I felt like, it is happening to me, the sounds, the pain, the cries and everything.
It's like it happening to me again.. I'll try my best to stop speeding and love my life.